Meditating for an hour is sooo powerful, but it's also insanely difficult

Some background: I've been meditating every single day for the past 5 months, but I've gotten a bit lazy with it to the point where I'll sometimes just do a quick 5 minute one before bed and, honestly, it's really just out of a feeling of obligation. You can't really get much out of a 5-10 minute session (or at least I can't). It's just about feeling this need to keep this long streak going. I know that, if I didn't bother with these 5 minute ones, I probably would have fallen out of the habit a few months back.

After reading a post on this sub the other day about how 1 hour meditations are so much better than 10-20 minute meditations, I decided to just go for it. With this motivation, I sat and meditated for a whole hour last night. As expected, it was really difficult. I tried to make it easier by using the "1 inhale, 2 exhale, 3 inhale..." method but that only went so far. I don't know if others experience this, but I'll sometimes sink into this state of being borderline asleep. Like, I know I'm not actually falling asleep, but I can feel my body switching into this weird rest mode and it's difficult to stay alert. Anyway, that happened. The most excruciating part of it all was the feeling that the timer would never go off. It eventually got to the point where I was thinking to myself "come on, it HAS to be finishing about now" and then it would just go on and on for what felt like a lifetime. Something like this really shows you just how long an hour actually is. It seems like no time at all when you're running around doing stuff, but you feel every second of it when you're just sitting there doing nothing but focusing on each moment.

After the meditation was over, I felt extremely spaced out and relaxed in a way that I haven't in a while (a feeling reminiscent of my earliest meditation experiences). I know that, if I meditated for an hour everyday, it would cause some significant changes to my life. The problem is that I just don't think I can bring myself to do it on a regular basis. I'm sure it gets easier the more you do it but, man, it's painful feeling like that hour will never end.