IWTL how to stop wanting a partner.

I'm an ugly, emotionally unwell fucker.

Never dated at 23 yet I keep wanting a partner. Hugging the damn pillow and fantasising and all that jazz. I want that shit to stop.

I don't actually want a relationship ever. I know I won't be a good partner and I don't want to be one. I would hate to be one she settles for after having fun with all the hot guys on the planet, and given how I look, it's the only ending I get. And I refuse to be that chump.

Well, that is assuming any woman would ever be interested in me and that seems impossible, given my personality and how I look. But ignoring women as a factor, I want to get rid of that bloody longing. How do I do that?